We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Amongst These Splintered Minds​/​/​Leaden Thoughts Sing Softly

by The Act of Estimating as Worthless

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.

    enter 0.00 for a free download. download comes with .pdf of accompanying book.
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price

     

  • Buy Cassette

1.
Bones 05:10
i see you for what you really are you’re nothing but a pile of bones so paper white crush them crush them crush them i will crush them sweep them into a pile and throw them out my front door the only air i breathe is that of your paper white bones and cigarette smoke that lingers when i come home please tell me that it won’t take too long for us to get for us to get home i have a feeling that there’s something wrong something so terribly wrong tell me what’s wrong something will change before the day is gone before your eyelids fall surrendering to slumber please don’t run away from here i am fearful please be weary of this fear i feel please don’t run away from here i am fearful please stay where i can see you my dear all is see is your bones so paper white
2.
i rubbed the dirt from my eye and accidentally made myself cry i watched as the weight on your shoulder made you tip over but still i find myself wishing i was more like you my hands grow tight with apprehension all this tension built up over the years i’m just looking for some attention - the kind that you pay for the kind that gets you through conversations and other things we have to do you are just a few paces behind me i will wait for you the day is breaking my knees are shaking i worry that i’ve taken too much my mind is empty and here you’ve left me i’m sorry if i fucked everything up know that there will always be tomorrow
3.
you didn’t like landing you told me as your curled up in your seat pulled your sweatshirt over your head so you wouldn’t see us descend and i didn’t like taking off but in the air we were both fine we walked there together but not way that i thought we would you were barefoot on the concrete i was wearing shoes my feet but i wanted to take them off and feel the dirt between my toes and i drive more slowly when its late at night and there’s no one else on the highway and the sky glows orange and makes the river shine
4.
Night Time 02:04
so light your incense and put one in each corning of the room and hope that calming scent will follow you where ever you may go let’s fill the room with candles pretend the power’s out and listen to the wind and rain as we eat dinner in the soft light watch the shadows from the small flames up against the bookshelf try to ignore whenever someone turns on a light tell them the powers out, what are you doing? stop the car and climb that hill next to the highway and look down at the lights of all the houses beneath us and up through the power lines to the stars above then back to the car the sun is almost rising now watch the shadows of the guardrail passing on the pavement as we drive all day trying to make it to the ocean so lets go sit by the water till the sun sets and we’ll find the perfect rocks to keep in our pockets
5.
lost cause i was a lost cause but now i feel good ‘cause i suffered no loss but i got lost lost in the forest and then i felt it felt it getting boring so i fell asleep with my thoughts spread out surrounding me and i walked to the dreamland it was a nightmarish sort of island there were monsters that chased me telling me today would be my last day so i said hello to the last day i would know and i don’t know whether i’ll be coming home for i am lost in the water the water i swam in when i was escaping and now i am drowning sinking to the bottom but the bottom is open perhaps you’ve forgotten that a circle has an end even if it connects to where it begins
6.
my left thumb goes on top when i weave my fingers together and i can’t remember whose thumb went on top when our hand were together but lately i’ve been told that i’m thinking too much and not just about you but there are certain memories i just can’t get out of head like how the lights above your hammock looked like glowing dragonfly wings in the dark without my glasses on and the passing trains shook us as we slowly drifted off but here instead of passing trains there are only passing airplanes which are less comforting because they don’t remind me of you and from my window they don’t look like how they used to look from yours
7.
we opened the doors to massive windows and slammed the cold wind out behind us. huddled in the entrance we turned lights on and though i couldn’t see through the curtains i knew what was behind them but when we pulled the curtains up it was too dark for us to see anything but our own reflections no mountains no valleys no massive skies no birds in the trees with their tiny black eyes for that we’d have to wait till morning and i’m finding this hard to put into words but there’s something ironic about the way this happens here we are in the middle of a mountain range but everything that we can see is all manmade - even the windows just show us the room we stand in
8.
i’ve got goosebumps on my arms from the cold outside won’t you wrap me in a blanket and take me inside give me a plate of cookies and a cup of tea light a fire to dry the socks that i’m wearing on my feet this is not a simple path that were walking down you’re talking to me like a child pull the drapes off of your face and take a walk now over rooftops under cities that shine with the starts look how bright they shine oh bright they shine pictures pictures all around waiting to be taken bracelets fall to the ground waiting to be found again along with spare change and small things they’re waiting to be found i’m waiting to found
9.
10.
The Troll 03:09
looking at me with those cold cold eyes those plastic eyes where worries lie took you by the hand with my warm warm hands the only hand you’ll understand we walked until my feet grew still my heart was broken - i laid it down we walked until you grew still my heart was weeping - i laid it down blood blood running down your face wondering where it came from - are you okay? run run to another place to another day another day
11.
fingernails from tiny fingers are scratching at my soul suddenly i find myself to be lying on the floor i am waiting i am praying that those tiny fingers don’t dig themselves a hole and find they’re way inside my ribcage to colonize my soul so i built myself an armored coat made of all these things i know to repel them from my soul keep those tiny fingers out of my soul but they scratched the surface dug their holes i surrendered letting go of things that i once held so close let those fingers build their homes now i’m nothing more than a hollow stone they removed my skin to let some light in cut my bones and now i’m broken wondered if i could’ve fought them gave up wondering because what happens happens gave up caring because what happens happens gave up living because what the hell happened i’m alone because they let me go just a pile of skin next to some broken bones
12.
Gem 02:34
sitting here wondering if i’ll get along thinking the same thing about you seven years isn’t really very long but it feels like a lifetime, it feels like a lifetime and the light that is tearing up the sky is coming for me taking pictures like you will forget everything you saw always so far away please come closer so i can touch you hold you rub you grope you feel you make you never go away because life is a roller coaster, a roller coaster they say run your fingers through your hair walk away and leave me standing there all i want is to follow you, walk with you, be with you, live with you, and die most of me is you

about

Released by Mt. Home, Double Double Whammy, and the band. Download comes with .pdf version of the book from the first edition.

credits

released February 24, 2012

Recorded between October 2010 and December 2011 by Michael Ditrio

Music by the Act of Estimating as Worthless

On this record:
Zoe Grant - guitar/vocals
Matthew Van Asselt - guitar/vocals/glockenspiel/bass guitar
Michael Ditrio - percussion
Peter Olynciw - upright bass
Jonathan Cummings - trumpet
Lily Holgate - violin
Thomas McHugh - trombone

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Mt. Home Arts New York, New York

contact / help

Contact Mt. Home Arts

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Report this album or account

If you like Amongst These Splintered Minds//Leaden Thoughts Sing Softly, you may also like: